Mourning

For the last week or so I've been thinking a lot about my nephew, Korbin. I don't know why I've been having a hard time lately. Maybe it's the season, the looming Holidays, or that he absolutely hated Halloween.

Then I thought, mourning is something that you never really stop doing. Especially when you're mourning the loss of a loved one. Even though I know that Korby is happy and that I will get to be with him again one day, it still doesn't make it any less difficult. I notice that mourning is also different, because of the difference in ages that people leave us. Let me explain. Korbin was only 5 when he left us and my Grandma was 83. Just because I don't cry when I think of Grandma doesn't mean that I don't love her or miss her less. It simply means that she was 83 and Korby was 5. Grandma was able to live a full life, where Korbin's was cut short.

I read a quote by President Thomas S. Monson is the most random of places, Maceys, "The past is behind; learn from it. The future is ahead; prepare for it. The present is now; live it.". Even though I knew this before, I again realized that this quote is something that we should all live by. Learn from the things you've done in your past, but also remember those you've lost along the way and honor their life. Prepare for what is to come or what could be. And last, but most important is to live today and everyday like it is your last.

I love you, Korby! I promise to keep you in my heart and in the minds of my children. I want them to know that living the Gospel is the right path. That through the gospel we will one day get to return to see loved ones, a loving Brother, and Our Father in Heaven.

I love you, Peter, Melly and Alex! I love my families (old, new & married into).